I met a couple of guy friends. And I really wanna know more about them. But the feeling is not mutual, sort of. And I've been obsessing about these guys. Like I've been creating scenarios and fantasies where we always hangout. I dreamed about them one time.
And when I actually do hangout with them, I do something stupid like tell them a secret.I get so excited when me and my friends are invited to hangout. And really happy when I'm with them. I don't know. Maybe because they're fun, nice, and really cool. They treat you and take you to places you've never been to and experience things you've never experience before. And lastly, they're kind of hot especially when they're passionate about their talents and skills.
But as I think about it more, I don't really get invited as much as my other friends are. I care so much about them and yet they don't find the effort to get to know me. And I get a little sad and disappointed. Jealous when my friends talk and brag about their fun. It made me feel left out so much that I wished I'd find new friends.
I always promise myself to never look forward in hanging out with them again. And if they ever asked, I would pass up and decline.
