Wednesday happenings

Now I understand what most people quote. Especially the one about being happy and then something bad happened afterwards. Cause apparently, that's what happened to me last Wednesday.

I was so giddy and lively and energetic at that time. I don't know why. I made funny comebacks and jokes. I thought I was sweet and lovely. I felt radiating. And then it got out of hand. When I realized what a complete idiot I was, I  tried to stay calm. But then it got so confusing. I started having both ways. I was overwhelmed by what was happening around me that I decided to just let it be. And then I suddenly handled it perfectly. Like I was a mature person. Fit to be graceful. But then it hindered something I wanted. Something my friend took. And so I got bitter. When I got home I decided to just be grateful. Be happy. After all, you don't get to have that chance everyday. And so I again felt lovely. But it immediately disappeared just by a few words from the very lips of my father. I felt awful. Like I'm a complete disappointment. Worthless. And then it got horrible when my mother joined in the club of misery. I was so down that I began to sulk. Like a child. AGAIN.

And that's how I realized you can't have it both ways. What must have been perfect is bound to be destroyed. Devastating as it is. That is how life works. And you're gonna have to deal with it. Confusing as my blog seems.