Dreading the days

I just got a text from a friend. She's enrolled for college. She told me what happen at her interview. Well, most of it. And it got me scared. I'm not really sure what I'm doing. And I'm so confused. I keep on staying home. Dreading the days. My mom's worried. Asking when will I start applying for college. Even my cousin's sick of waiting for me. I don't know what I want. I'm freaking out.