Lenny

hi! it's been a month since I last blogged. I've been so busy with school. And everybody,
teachers, parents, relatives, friends and even a stranger, is pressuring me about what course will I take. I'm so stressed and busy with 4th year life that I can't even upload or blog for a minute. I can't even read my favorite novel because I don't have the free time to read it. So many projects, assignments, and presentations. I don't even have time for myself. I don't have time for anything. And a lot of things happened in my life for the past few days or rather past few weeks. Unfortunately, I can't sum up everything that happened in one blog so I'm just gonna put those in the next blog. 

Anyway, there's something that's been bothering me since the first day of school. It's about college. Everybody's talking about their future while here I am still undecided. I don't know what to do after I graduate. And if i don't decide now my parents will. They want me to be a medical technologists like my cousins, like follow their footsteps. And I don't even like to study medical courses. What am I gonna do?

I'm like Annie Braddock from the "Nanny Diaries". 

She's fresh from college who is confused about her future. Her mom wants her to have a positition at the business world but all she wants is to be an anthropologists. And so what she did was escape the real world and become an inexperienced nanny. She got so attached to her employer's son that she almost forgot about her future. But after awhile she finally made a decision to pursue her dream. 

I really goddamn wish it would be that easy but it's not. Even the word college still scares me. please people, help meeeeeeeeeeeee